growing up, down, and every way in between!

I need to blog about something, but im not sure just what.
I suppse my life, because that is what this is essentially for...am i right?
Sadly, the only thing that comes out of my mouth is like a broken record player, "Hi there, how can i help you?" "Looking for the proshop, its just down the big wooden stair case!" and my favourite which alternate with the weather either "Great weather we're having today for golf!" or "It's a shame the bad weather you're having, make sure you have your coffee out there!" with a big fake, warm cheesey smile!

So lets get down to basics, the usual meet and greet sort of stuff.

Hows the job?
- crazy, busy, causing sleep deprivation, hallucinations, and im sure many other things that im too tired to be aware about
- job is also, causing tears, stress and the desire to quit at the very second i get the schedule every week

Home life?
- what is home? i live at work.

Social life?
- i live at work. social life = friends at work = sometimes awesome/sometimes horrible
- o right and school! which i am horribly behind in and i feel like i might fail!

and yes the ultimate girl question BOYS?
- let me see, let me see...since school has ended not only has my boy love life suddenly become this huge mess of confusion, uncertainty, and moments where i literally stand there thinking..."what the hell just happened!?" but somehow my heart has been tugged on by three completely different guys!
- Let us call them Bachelor 1, Bachelor 2, Bachelor 3
....get ready for this guys...my heart is moving pretty quick lately. Something new for everyone. I am the girl that in the past 10 years until now, liked one boy and one boy only until the next boy came along around two years later. I could say until this past year that I had liked say 4 guys in my lifetime and could list them off for you. But no, since April swung around and brought its shower, the thing that has bloomed is crap. total crap, or as my mom would say...bullocks!

Bachelor 1 - please make up your mind, or else im walking.
Bachelor 2 - mind made up, but heart not...me left standing :)
Bachelor 3 - this just in...new this week, literally a McDreamy look-a-like who asked for my number however due to supervisor present could not give to the cause... i get excited to go to work now :P Bachelor #3 - please show up again and melt my heart!

<3 peace and love, hugs and kisses, kisses and squishes - off to Aussie land in 11 days! let the count down begin!

sometimes you just don't want lemonade

it's okay to be upset sometimes. it's okay to be negative. in fact, it's even okay to feel a little sorry for yourself.

i wouldn't go so far as to condone it all the time, but sometimes bad things happen and it really really sucks. and you're allowed to feel down about that.

and i get it - everything happens for a reason, blah blah blah. but be real about it. chances are, the positive attitude is just a front to cover up the actual hurt anyway. and really? sometimes life just is not fair. so rather than always making lemonade, bust out the tequila every once in awhile. [figuratively, of course].

there is more to life than the bright side.


profound, i know.


in other news, the dutch are to continue and play cameroon on thursday! future world champs?

Can't help but smile

I know i say i hate my job way too often , but there are some parts that I like. Like wen a kid comes running on deck cuz they are so excited to start class or when we go on little adventures to the moon and we bring ice cream or when we make pancakes and put bubble gum and people in them. But the best part is the little hand made cards and "birds that don't look like birds " that you get.... I can't help but smile .